{"id":1383,"date":"2011-01-18T13:10:33","date_gmt":"2011-01-18T18:10:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=1383"},"modified":"2011-01-18T13:10:33","modified_gmt":"2011-01-18T18:10:33","slug":"staying-at-home","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=1383","title":{"rendered":"Staying At Home…"},"content":{"rendered":"

Was your mom a stay at home mom? \u00a0Did that impact your decision as to if you would be a stay at home parent?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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On the radio this morning there was a discussion about how the parent that stays at home has more stress then the parent that works outside the home. \u00a0It was an interesting conversation…<\/p>\n

I am not your typical stay at home mom. \u00a0In fact, I am hardly ever home. \u00a0I am always working on a project. \u00a0Or when I am not in the middle of a project, I find myself out and about doing this and that.<\/p>\n

Then add the dentist and doctor appointments… which I usually book for the boys during the day so I can just take the one child and sneak in a lunch and that one on one time with them.<\/p>\n

I try to meet Sanj for lunch a few times a week. \u00a0It is a guaranteed time with him alone. \u00a0Usually it is in the parking lot around the corner from the McD where he gets his salad with grill chicken… yup, every day!<\/p>\n

Today, I decided to stay at home. \u00a0Amazing what I can actually accomplish!<\/p>\n

I’ve done a few loads of laundry, folded, in piles, waiting \u00a0for the boys to put away.<\/p>\n

I have today’s supper of stir-fry with shrimp ready to throw together. \u00a0I even have tomorrow’s supper of chili ready to just put into the crock pot and let it cook throughout the day.<\/p>\n

My cleaning lady is here, so that takes the pressure of the rest of the house… which would guarantee me to be in a foul mood.<\/p>\n

I feel so good … and it’s 11:53 am… I still have a few hours to do the errands needed. \u00a0Max is going to a class \u00a0trip for the next three days. \u00a0He needs a few things… I am so not ready for my Max to go on this trip. \u00a0The older three did it… and somehow that was OK. \u00a0Yet, now, Max, my oldest of the youngest is going. \u00a0I feel sad. \u00a0My younger ones are now growing up. \u00a0How did that happen? \u00a0Josh is getting so big and heavy that I can’t comfortably lift him up anymore. \u00a0\ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n

Sign.<\/p>\n

I have been writing. \u00a0So far 9087 words have been written. \u00a0I have to admit, it is hard going back to that time… it is harder than I thought to re-live the fear, anger and wanting while writing.<\/p>\n

Yet… I am trying really hard to focus on the fact that God gives us what He knows we can handle. \u00a0He gave my mom the strength to live the life she did… and because of it, I am here. \u00a0If my mom \u00a0was stronger and just beat my dad up from day one of him being an idiot… I wouldn’t be here.<\/p>\n

My kids wouldn’t be here.<\/p>\n

Maybe my mom is stronger for living that life than walking away from it. \u00a0I don’t know. \u00a0I know that Sanj said that I am harder on my mom than my dad. \u00a0That comment has bothered me. \u00a0Yet maybe I love my mom more than my dad. \u00a0Maybe. \u00a0So maybe I expected more and needed more.<\/p>\n

I don’t know.<\/p>\n

Oh well… I suppose that it is therapeutic for me. \u00a0I am figuring it all out… even though I thought I had it figured out already.<\/p>\n

Back to being a stay at home mom… \u00a0that is what I am today.<\/p>\n

I feel good.<\/p>\n

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