{"id":2396,"date":"2011-10-11T05:13:00","date_gmt":"2011-10-11T09:13:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=2396"},"modified":"2011-10-11T05:17:46","modified_gmt":"2011-10-11T09:17:46","slug":"discombobulated","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=2396","title":{"rendered":"Scared."},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s 4:50 a.m.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n


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For me to be up at this hour any day means I am stressed.<\/p>\n

I will be showering and heading to the hospital in a bit. \u00a0I have to be there at 6:30 a.m. \u00a0I was grumpy at the earliness of the hour but since I can’t sleep, I may as well get this over with. \u00a0I just hope my doctor isn’t too sleep and IS a morning person.<\/p>\n

Thanks for all the well wishes. \u00a0I am a little freaked out now. \u00a0I felt kind of numb last night. \u00a0This morning I have a very rumbly tummy.<\/p>\n

Maybe I have seen to many ER shows, where patients go in for a routine surgery and don’ t come out on the other side. \u00a0That would make me so sad. \u00a0I have a good life. \u00a0Be it, it has its’ ups and downs but it is a life I like living. \u00a0So, if you can pray for me… 8 a.m. today, I’d really appreciate it.<\/p>\n

I have felt love from so many of you. \u00a0Thanks for the notes, calls, plans of meals, rides for my babes. \u00a0It’s all so overwhelming.<\/p>\n

I am sure I will pass this event with flying colors. \u00a0I am looking forward to testing out my pain pump. \u00a0Apparently I can’t over dose on it! Lol.<\/p>\n

Dear Jesus,<\/em><\/p>\n

Here I am, ready (well, not really ready but…) to take this step to freedom from my monthly pains. \u00a0I am scared. \u00a0Actually, more than scared. \u00a0Please… give me strength and courage. \u00a0Please don’t let the IV hurt too bad. \u00a0Please may the recovery be easy peasy. \u00a0Please take care of my babes. How much I love them. \u00a0Please give Sanj the extra this and that he will need. \u00a0Thank you for my friends and family. \u00a0How I love them all. \u00a0I love You, Jesus so much.<\/em><\/p>\n

Amen.<\/em><\/p>\n

Well, here I go…<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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