{"id":3494,"date":"2014-01-05T18:58:38","date_gmt":"2014-01-05T23:58:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=3494"},"modified":"2014-01-05T19:06:33","modified_gmt":"2014-01-06T00:06:33","slug":"page-five","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=3494","title":{"rendered":"Page Five"},"content":{"rendered":"

The sermon today was How to Know God’s Plan for You? \u00a0Ugh\u2026. this is a question I battle with often.<\/span><\/p>\n

See after Zachary, baby number five, we were done! \u00a0I mean originally, we were down for 4 kids. \u00a0This was our plan, as we chatted about love, life and children. \u00a0It was the plan. \u00a0We never thought about 4 boys! \u00a0I mean\u2026 I just never thought of it. \u00a0Then we had 4 boys\u2026 and I just couldn’t fathom not having a baby girl. \u00a0So we have baby 5- BOY 5- Sweet beautiful Zach!<\/p>\n

We were done. \u00a05 boys. \u00a0This was the edited plan. \u00a0We were content. \u00a0So I thought. \u00a0Yet I still believed that we were to have a girl. \u00a05 verses 6 children\u2026 not a big deal, right? \u00a0Sanj never says no\u2026 obviously. \u00a0So Baby 6 was on its way. \u00a0I prayed hard. \u00a0Over each pregnancy. \u00a0I prayed for God’s will to be done. \u00a0First ultrasound\u2026 those that have had babes, you know how those techs are. They can be very intense. \u00a0I always find myself holding my breath. \u00a0Is babe moving? \u00a0Does he\/she have two heads? \u00a0Well then the tech excuses himself and in comes the doctor. \u00a0Oye. \u00a0This has never happened before. \u00a0And\u2026 I GOTTA PEE!!! \u00a0I am sent back to my OBGYN and told that I have a molar pregnancy<\/a>. \u00a0Huh?<\/p>\n

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Long and short was that I needed D&C and lost the baby.<\/p>\n

It really sucked.<\/p>\n

Here’s when I went into doubting God’s will. Maybe God’s will wasn’t for us to have 6 kids. \u00a0Thus the molar pregnancy. \u00a0How did I know God’s will because I really felt that God was ok with this plan\u2026 of course I could have just as easily convinced myself of all this.<\/p>\n

I mean\u2026 please couldn’t God just shout it out or write on the snow or give me a dream?<\/p>\n

Sigh. \u00a0Again the long and short of it\u2026 we decided to give it one more try. \u00a0I didn’t want that to be my end story \u2026 and I still wanted a girl. \u00a0Yup\u2026 Josh was pregnancy number 7! \u00a0All was well. \u00a0He was a boy. \u00a0I had to just give up. \u00a0(I didn’t believe the doc when he said, “Its a boy”\u2026 I had to see between his legs before I believed!!!). \u00a0And then I had to deal with the realization that girls were not in my cards. \u00a0God said no.<\/p>\n

Knowing His will\u2026 was hard. \u00a0My will seemed to be mixed up with God’s will. \u00a0Or maybe it was His will for us to have 6 boys. \u00a0OR not but He worked with my stubbornness and decided He’s teach \u00a0me \u00a0a lesson. \u00a0Josh. Yup. \u00a0Instant birth control. lol<\/p>\n

Done.<\/p>\n

Over.<\/p>\n

Thank You, Jesus.<\/p>\n

Please help me to continue to see Your Will.<\/p>\n

You know, six kids in this day and age is a lot. \u00a0I didn’t see past babies. \u00a0I sometimes think about how different life would be with 2.2 kids or 4.3 kids. \u00a0(Don’t ask me what the point something kids is). \u00a0Cheaper, faster, less messy, less laundry, did I say cheaper? \u00a0And yet\u2026 I truly can’t imagine my life without Baby boy 5 & 6. \u00a0They are so full of love. \u00a0They are so full of life. \u00a0They keep me young. \u00a0There are so many days in a week that I just have to stop and thank God for these two extra blessings in my life.<\/p>\n

Yes, I’m conviniced that I was meant to be momma to six crazy energetic boys. \u00a0God saw it all\u2026 and knew that this is how to keep me\u2026 close to Him\u2026 I couldn’t do it without His grace.<\/p>\n

Thank You, Jesus for making Your will be know.<\/p>\n

I love You.<\/p>\n

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