Oh my goodness. \u00a0What a week it has been! \u00a0By Wednesday I was done. \u00a0And I had two more sleeps to get through. \u00a0Monday and \u00a0Tuesday consisted of one of my sons having a HUGE meltdown. \u00a0You know (or maybe you don’t know) the kind that shakes you to the core? The kind that makes you have a meltdown? The kind that makes you question what the heck you are doing parenting? Yes, it was ugly. \u00a0I am so grateful for friends that I can bounce things off, for friends that love my kids and can be there when I am not or when they don’t want me. \u00a0For friends that don’t judge. \u00a0For friends that understand that praying – when there is nothing else to do- really does work. \u00a0Yesterday, kid that I wanted to give way, came and apologized. \u00a0Wow, motherhood! \u00a0It’s not for the weak at heart. \u00a0Be warned. \u00a0Of course unless you have perfect kids, then I probably really hate you. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
Wednesday ( a word I always spell wrong regardless of how hard I try to get it right) was the day I took my FIL to TO for his appointment. \u00a0I’ve said it before, it’s a grueling day of doing nothing but waiting and yet the most exhausting day, ever. \u00a0My FIL was finished with his first bout of treatments. \u00a0Unfortunately, he thought he was done with chemo. \u00a0\ud83d\ude41 \u00a0The doc comes in and tells him now he is to started his second course of chemo, a little milder dosage. \u00a0Then she said words that I will likely never forget. \u00a0She told him he had 72 treatments in this next set, once every 3 weeks. \u00a0Isn’t that like a year and some? \u00a0Isn’t that forever? \u00a0Those were my thoughts. \u00a0My poor FIL looked shocked and overwhelmed. \u00a0In that moment I felt my heart hurt, for him. \u00a0After hearing this news, we went to get his treatment of a lumbar puncture\u2026 yup, they hunch him over and tell him to hold still while the stick a huge long needle in his spine and push more chemo.<\/p>\n
Don’t me wrong. \u00a0I am so grateful that my FIL is a strong man. \u00a0He handled this like someone half his age. \u00a0He is one of the healthier people in the waiting room. \u00a0We have been given a gift. \u00a0Every day is a gift.<\/p>\n
Then I hear that one of my dear friends that I have such a heart for (she is the first person \u00a0that took my boys, all of them – ages 6-1 something crazy like that, and gave me a break. \u00a0Just time to literally do nothing. And she wasn’t overwhelmed with them. \u00a0She’s from a family of 6). \u00a0I will never forget that gift. \u00a0Last week her dad died. \u00a0Brain cancer, died one week after being diagnosed. \u00a0She adores her parents. \u00a0I know she’s heartbroken. \u00a0My heart has been aching for her. \u00a0Today is the funeral. \u00a0 Sammy and a friend will go with me to TO. \u00a0They were classmates with one of her sons. \u00a0My heart is breaking for her and her family.<\/p>\n
Then it’s Friday. \u00a0You know, my favorite day of the week. Except I am not ready for it. \u00a0We have one of our cousins and family coming for the weekend. \u00a0We love them. And are so excited. \u00a0But I haven’t grocery shopped. \u00a0I don’t even have a menu. \u00a0I feel unprepared.<\/p>\n
And yet\u2026 this week is over. \u00a0In all of it, I have been able to see God’s hand. \u00a0Oh, can I tell you a little ( but really a huge) God sighting? \u00a0Yesterday I was backing out of the boys high school. \u00a0I was full of thought. \u00a0I changed from reverse to drive and then realized that I was literally inches from bashing into a car behind me that I didn’t see, that was in the blind spot. \u00a0And because I didn’t see any vehicle, I reversed faster\u2026 so had I \u00a0hit that car, impact and damage would have been significant. \u00a0I know\u2026 really know\u2026 my angel was standing there behind my car\u2026 saving me from a event that would have been so horrid to cope with. \u00a0It’s the little things some times that can make or break you. \u00a0I’m so grateful to have faith that there is Someone much bigger than me, that has my back. \u00a0And with that knowledge, I can face tomorrow.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Oh my goodness. \u00a0What a week it has been! \u00a0By Wednesday I was done. \u00a0And I had two more sleeps to get through. \u00a0Monday and \u00a0Tuesday consisted of one of my sons having a HUGE meltdown. \u00a0You know (or maybe … Continue reading