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<\/a><\/p>\nSamuel Peter-<\/strong> My little being who taught me to love like I never knew possible\u2026 I mean \u00a0he consumed my world. \u00a0I loved to just stare at him\u2026 forever and loved that he stared back, understanding that my world revolved around his little 6 and some pound being. \u00a0Sammy had and continues to have such a huge personality. \u00a0He is confident, engaging and a real people person. \u00a0He has a big heart and loves big. \u00a0He has a real gift with kids and I can easily see him being a dad of 6ix \u00a0girls!!!! loll \u00a0Sammy taught me to love that unconditional love that Jesus loves us, His children. \u00a0He has taught me \u00a0that love is letting go, love is letting him fly knowing, hoping and\u00a0believing that my love for him is a\u00a0<\/em>boomerang — I’m letting him soar— knowing that he will always know home and mama are here open armed ready for him.<\/i><\/p>\n Matthew Tyler-<\/strong> \u00a0From a little babe, we called Tyler, our gentle giant. He was such a mama’s boy. \u00a0He was a very nervous child that loved his family and not much more. \u00a0He loved nature and was a lover of elephants and triceratops. \u00a0He was of an obsessive nature and taught me patience x 10000000. \u00a0He didn’t even understand himself. \u00a0He is a defender of his brothers. \u00a0I remember taking the boys to a community play group. \u00a0A boy kept taking toys my boys were playing. \u00a0His mom was not playing attention. \u00a0After the third time of “being polite” \u00a0Tyler stood up tall — his little 3-4 year old self and said to the boy, “My BROTHER is playing with that truck!” \u00a0Oh my goodness\u2026 I remember my mama heart puffing out so proud!!! \u00a0Despite of his anxiety of others, he stood up and defended his brothers. \u00a0Tyler has\u00a0taught me to find patience that I never knew I had to deal with things that are unknown and\u00a0<\/em>foreign. \u00a0He was a very specific child and very picky. \u00a0He taught me to love\u00a0unconditionally\u00a0regardless of how\u00a0crazy things got. \u00a0He taught me that my mothering was effective. \u00a0He is a defender of his family. \u00a0He is a defender of his mama. \u00a0We are so different. \u00a0And yet we have the same heart. \u00a0<\/i><\/p>\n Jordan Michael-<\/strong> Michael is a crazy name to spell\u2026 e before a or a before e\u2026 oye! \u00a0It’s the one that looks weird, Jordan told me. \u00a0Jordan is my boy that I think is the most like Sanj over me. \u00a0He is a musician, enjoys being in the “dungeon” like Sanj, alone, making music. \u00a0He was an easy going baby and a very stubborn toddler. \u00a0STUBBORN! \u00a0I wasn’t sure how to parent this little being that had more willpower than body mass!!! \u00a0I would eventually just put him in his room and tell him to have a time out till he could join the rest of us and be normal. \u00a0That was my first mistake! Normal? \u00a0My family— we just don’t do normal!!! lol \u00a0Jordan would eventually holler, “Mommy- I’m sorry, \u00a0can I come down?” \u00a0<\/em>My mama conscious would freak out!!! I totally forgot he was up there, it had been a long time!!! \u00a0SMH! This boy has a confidence I am so proud of\u2026 because there’s not that ugly arrogance attached. \u00a0The boy has some serious talent\u2026. all passed down from his dad. \u00a0He \u00a0has always been an independent one\u2026 but occasionally just needs his mama. \u00a0I remember JK\u2026 Jordan was so excited about going to his big brothers school and had no anxiety or tears the other two may have had. \u00a0I was so proud! \u00a0The first day of school ended and all the parents were congregated in the hall, chatting away. \u00a0Then we heard this horrid sound— a broken hearted child wailing. \u00a0I remember so clearly laughing to the parent beside me saying, “Someone’s not happy!” \u00a0Then seconds later, I see his teacher coming to me telling me that Jordan’s having a hard time leaving his indoor shoes at school. \u00a0Oh My! lol \u00a0My poor child totally melted down, on the mat by the door, holding his beloved Spiderman shoes he had been so excited to buy! \u00a0So precious! \u00a0With the older two in school, I forgot that I needed to break it down for this little man too. \u00a0Needless to say, Spiderman shoes came home and we were about to prep my little JK man about the indoor shoes staying at school. \u00a0Yup\u2026 sometimes he needs his mama! \u00a0Jordan has taught to see, be quiet and listen with my heart, since he is the child so different from me\u2026 and yet we speak the same language of our hearts. \u00a0His has a big heart. \u00a0He is a lover and a giver \u00a0 and if I listen and watch I hear things I may have missed.<\/em><\/p>\n Maxwell David<\/strong>– \u00a0This boy has been a sweet child for 14 years. \u00a0Max has always been a quiet child that didn’t cause us grief, was always \u00a0defender of his mom and my shadow. \u00a0Then he entered high school. \u00a0 Not sure where my sweet little man went but taking his place is a confident, funny, corky, weird boy to man who seems to have hair growing on his face and elsewhere. \u00a0My little boy has gone and in his place is the half man that is onto workout and decorating his room with Value Village cast offs and who has a very off sense of humour. \u00a0He is very comfortable with his own company. \u00a0He has to be careful that his weird humour is not offensive. \u00a0He has many talents though music and art are not \u00a0he’s God given gifts\u2026 but we love that he puts his heart into it! \u00a0 He is kind, thoughtful and Josh best buddy as he will humour Josh like no one else came. \u00a0Though 14, if I am lucky, I get a hug or fist bump from him still, time to time. \u00a0Max has taught me to let it go and laugh. \u00a0He decorating style (a whole post will be coming on this )\u2026 nope\u2026 certainly not anywhere near my taste\u2026 or that of most sane people\u2026 but it makes him happy and so I need to accept it with a laugh and let it go. \u00a0It’s Max that is sleeping with a 10 pound bag of basmati rice hanging precariously \u00a0over his head\u2026 a concussion waiting to happen\u2026 but with that concussion will be a hilarious, tears rolling down our face story!!! SMH!!! Love this boy’s humour, as warped as it it!!!!\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n Zachary Thomas<\/strong>– This child of mine who is sitting on that fine line between boy and teen is my most independent of child, even from a babe. \u00a0He is full of energy and loves all things physical and moving— especially yearning for a dirt bike. \u00a0He is the one that uses our land most – driving the utility vehicle like a trained pro- he will pass though for his license with flying colours! \u00a0He is my boy that is also social and loves being with people. \u00a0He is my child with very expensive taste, it often startles me! \u00a0lol \u00a0He loves shopping! \u00a0He loves his family. \u00a0He loves\u2026. \u00a0He is the one that gets picked on the most\u2026 And yet he will do anything for his brothers. \u00a0He is a hardworking boy. \u00a0He loves working along side of Sanj\u2026 putting up the rink, cleaning the garage, taking dump runs\u2026 He is a daddy’s boy. \u00a0He is a mama’s boy who hates seeing me upset. \u00a0Zachary has taught me about forgiveness\u2026 about family \u00a0and loving hard. \u00a0He loves his brothers so much. \u00a0It hurts me to see how hard he is able to love. \u00a0Loving hard is a such a beautiful character trait\u2026 one that Zach reminds me to emulate.<\/em><\/p>\n Joshua Daniel<\/strong>– \u00a0Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh\u2026. Do you know my Josh? \u00a0I mean really know him? \u00a0There aren’t too many that really know my dear Josh. \u00a0I am actually stumped on what to say. \u00a0lol \u00a0This boy — this big boy is a mama’s boy. \u00a0He loves me. \u00a0Period. \u00a0He can’t stand to think that I am mad at him. \u00a0It hurts to the core to consider that his mama may be truly ticked off at him or his antics. \u00a0 He loves to be by my side\u2026 if you look up Reema’s Shadow, you’ll likely see my Josh’s picture right there. \u00a0He is a home body. \u00a0He hates school. \u00a0He’d rather hang out at home- period. \u00a0He loves WWE. \u00a0Maybe a better term is obsessed with it. \u00a0He knows all the characters and lingoes and whatever else is part of that world. \u00a0I can’t believe that I actually have spent many a time watching WWE with my boy. \u00a0He is a true giant of a boy and has had to learn to be gentle with people. \u00a0I have learned so much from my youngest. \u00a0I have learned to love till it hurts from Josh. \u00a0I have learned to love despite being exhausted. \u00a0I have learned that there is still something in you to give, even when you think there isn’t. \u00a0I have learned to love \u2026 more than i thought possible \u2026 from this boy\u2026 my youngest boy.<\/em><\/p>\n Dear Jesus…<\/p>\n You have blessed me beyond. \u00a0I am totally dependent on You, \u00a0as I journey through motherhood, hoping for the best for my babies, knowing that \u00a0YOU love them more than I \u00a0am ever capable of. \u00a0I love you so much for this life \u2026 as I know. \u00a0I am grateful that You believe in me. \u00a0It is my only hope\u2026 lol most days\u2026 and a daily reminder that I must look UP or I will never make it. \u00a0Thank you for motherhood. \u00a0My boys. \u00a0My Sanj. \u00a0And Jesus\u2026 for You!!!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This Mother’s Day has been a little different from the rest\u2026 maybe because my first child has fled the coop. \u00a0I feel his absence in a way I never thought was possible. \u00a0As long as I could remember, I couldn’t … Continue reading <\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n<\/a><\/p>\n