{"id":3998,"date":"2015-07-17T16:53:26","date_gmt":"2015-07-17T20:53:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=3998"},"modified":"2015-07-17T16:53:26","modified_gmt":"2015-07-17T20:53:26","slug":"taking-care-of-my-yard","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=3998","title":{"rendered":"Taking Care Of My Yard…."},"content":{"rendered":"

It been a hard past year for me. \u00a0No secret. \u00a0I have finally been seeing a psychologist who was referred to me by a friend and I have to say that God had a hand in this!!! \u00a0She is good. She’s a Christian. \u00a0She makes me feel like I am going to tackle this BIG THING and going to come out the other side able to be me again. \u00a0Me without the BIG THING \u00a0weighing me down.<\/p>\n

I have learned that I am emotionally too generous. \u00a0Wow. \u00a0When it was said, I felt like someone just painted a portrait of me, perfectly. \u00a0I learned that everyone has their own yard and weeds… I’m a very visual person, so this analogy is perfect for me. \u00a0I have been so busy allowing others weeds to grow into my yard. \u00a0I have set no barriers such as fence or hedges etc to protect my yard. \u00a0The reality is that my yard is a pretty big yard. \u00a0(My yard has has to accommodate my family of 6 boys and my hubby).<\/p>\n

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Sigh. \u00a0I’ve realized that there’s so much I do because I don’t want to hurt anyone. \u00a0Duty. \u00a0Obligation. \u00a0Guilt. \u00a0Oye. \u00a0I’ve got to learn to listen to my heart. \u00a0I have to learn to give myself permission to listen to me- and set boundaries. \u00a0Boundaries. \u00a0Yup! \u00a0So I feel like I’m going to school, learning how to set limits and boundaries that can only make me happier and emotionally healthier.<\/p>\n

There are so many weeds in my garden. \u00a0They are stifling my yard and not allowing my grass to grow thick, healthy greens. \u00a0The problem is setting boundaries. \u00a0It’s one thing to hear problems of others but feeling the need to fix it or feeling their burden to heavily is not healthy. \u00a0Sigh.<\/p>\n

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I realized that sometimes weeds look to beautiful that I forget that they are weeds suffocating things of beauty that I am missing out in.<\/p>\n

I am constantly wishing for a huge lotto win, not just to make my life easier but so many others. \u00a0This life is so hard. \u00a0This life can be so exhausting. \u00a0And yet there is so much beauty that can be missed out with all the weeds filtering in … that I missing seeing the beautiful gardens in my yard.<\/p>\n

Sometimes I see others tending to their yard… there are not of weeds, there are just beautiful trees, bushes, gorgeous flower beds and lush green grass. \u00a0Sometimes there are pools or benches or a treehouse. \u00a0Sometimes there are a few that adjoining yards but each yard is still very distinct and weed free especially at the borders of each property. \u00a0How do people do that? \u00a0How do they keep their yards so weed free?\"images-2\"<\/a><\/p>\n

So, I’m on a journey to begin landscaping my yard. \u00a0I hate yard work. That’s not an analogy… the reality is yard work is something I’m allergic too. \u00a0Sanj tackles it or I’d hire someone. \u00a0The irony is that now I’m seeing someone to help me weed my garden and set up nice boundaries. \u00a0The reality \u00a0of the comparison isn’t lost on me. \u00a0SMH.<\/p>\n

I want to learn to be me… but emotionally healthy. \u00a0 \u00a0I want to invite friends for ice tea, well in reality, I’d prefer lemonade, \u00a0in my yard without having to pull out weeds after a visit. \u00a0I am quite eager to learn how.<\/p>\n

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Can you relate to any of this? \u00a0Or do you keep your yard nice and neat?<\/p>\n

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