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This time next week, the boys will have completed their first day of school and life will be heading back to more routine and schedule. \u00a0This last week is busy with all that last minute stuff and I am mourning the end of summer. \u00a0No I am not one of those moms that are happy to see the school year here… and my kids gone. \u00a0I actually enjoy the casualness of our days that summer allows.<\/p>\n

Today I was in the office to babysit one of Sanj’s employee’s babe. \u00a0With a cutie- I believe he was 10 months old. \u00a0Josh came along with me to babysit and loved every minute of it. \u00a0I was grateful that he didn’t ask again, if we could have a baby! \u00a0Josh was great with the baby and the baby seems to reciprocate the same back his enjoyment. \u00a0Wow, I forgot about baby mode! \u00a0God definitely knew what He was doing having us reproduce at a younger, energetic age! LOL \u00a0Again— not sure how the biblical Sarah did it!!!<\/p>\n

Today I was confronted with feeling like I was in high school again. \u00a0Friendships… and the silly games that get played. \u00a0I saw someone at the mall who for a while, I was close to. \u00a0Then for some truly unknown reason, she withdrew and we are not friends. \u00a0Weird. \u00a0I made the effort a few times. \u00a0Yet as one would act in high school, so was it treated. \u00a0I have to admit smh many a time, feeling the hurt of confusion and having it unresolved. \u00a0I hate that feeling … and sadly, I’ve had that happen with three specific friendship where I thought we were all that and then suddenly (and I do mean suddenly) it’s like we broke up. \u00a0I take friendship seriously so I’m an all or nothing gal. \u00a0I don’t get it. \u00a0I have a lot of girlfriends in Peterborough that are my friends. \u00a0And I appreciate them and the \u00a0fact that we can go out for coffee and catch up and hug and know that I’m here and will be for you. till we make the effort to catch up again. \u00a0Then there is that close circle of friends. \u00a0The older I get, the smaller that circle becomes. \u00a0I get that it’s a reality of life. \u00a0I also get that time and life have a way of making some relationships grow.<\/p>\n

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I guess as most of my boys are finally growing out of elementary age and on to high school…and college, it changes things too. \u00a0Maybe this is a cycle of life. \u00a0I don’t know. \u00a0Yet as I saw this \u00a0former friend, I still felt pain and betrayal. \u00a0I suppose a piece of me wants to lash out. \u00a0And yet know \u00a0I won’t.<\/p>\n

When Sanj came home, as we were chatting he made a passing comment that a friend… someone I was close to for a period of time… and then life came and she moved and we become more social passing by friends, died. \u00a0She died of an aggressive cancer. \u00a0I am shocked. \u00a0And saddened. \u00a0And wonder if she knew she was a special part of me for that time. \u00a0I wonder if she knew that I loved her and appreciated that piece of her that was in my life?<\/p>\n

Then I wonder about these unresolved relationships… do I address them with a letter? \u00a0Do I just find a way to let it go? \u00a0Will I be sorry that they were unresolved it I found out they passed?<\/p>\n

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