Today was the first day back to school after March Break. It was quiet. it was calm. Despite the chore of lunches and the usually morning chaos… I had time to just be! Josh seemed to understand this and was calm too.<\/p>\n
We had nothing special planned over the break. Just took it one day at a time. We saw some movies, did some shopping, had friends over, got some rooms better organized and ended the week by going to Toronto to the Hockey Hall of Fame. <\/p>\n
My boys could live at that place. HOCKEY… apparently when I say they live it, breathe it, sleep it… this is a literal thing.
They had a great time. They ate up the history of the sport and its larger than life players.<\/p>\n
I was bored. I looked for a lounge but apparently this was not thought of in the planning of the place. The shopping was limited to hockey… I had to restrain myself. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n
As I was thinking of the time over the March break… I realize that I set my self up every time. I love being with my boys. I love planning things that create memories for our family. Yet I am always left a bit (sometimes a lot) disappointed with the bickering and nattering that happens. it over takes the pleasantness that was imagined in my mind.<\/p>\n
I want them to love each other and enjoy each other. Yes, they do this in small doses yet seldom does it happen as a brotherhood of the six of them. It makes me unhappy to be in this state with them on what is suppose to be a happy vacation time.<\/p>\n
What I realized today is that I take it personally. The fact that they are not loving and always getting along makes my attack my parenting skills. If I was doing something better… they would act better. It seems ridiculous to assume that I would ever parent perfectly… thus I suppose that it seems ridiculous to expect my sons to be “picture perfect.” <\/p>\n
Oh what a drop back to reality. I can hardly expect more than I can do myself. <\/p>\n
So I will take the week to get back to routine… catch up on laundry, finish a few projects and head back to the gym.<\/p>\n
I will continue to better myself as a person and parent. I hope to lead through example. Living and Loving as a parent is not an easy task. Living and Loving as brothers… not as easy task.<\/p>\n
Having the opportunity to live and love as a family… painful, frustrating, exhausting, ( I really do not need to go on… right) yet one of my most cherished blessings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Today was the first day back to school after March Break. It was quiet. it was calm. Despite the chore of lunches and the usually morning chaos… I had time to just be! Josh seemed to understand this and was … Continue reading