{"id":553,"date":"2009-04-06T15:33:00","date_gmt":"2009-04-06T19:33:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=553"},"modified":"2009-04-06T15:33:00","modified_gmt":"2009-04-06T19:33:00","slug":"what-next","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=553","title":{"rendered":"What Next?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a onblur=\"try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}\" href=\"http:\/\/1.bp.blogspot.com\/_ESvCH9ghcAI\/Sdp4Y1rRJJI\/AAAAAAAABiI\/qHnzKiwVTMQ\/s1600-h\/September_2009_Style_1.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" style=\"float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 308px;\" src=\"http:\/\/1.bp.blogspot.com\/_ESvCH9ghcAI\/Sdp4Y1rRJJI\/AAAAAAAABiI\/qHnzKiwVTMQ\/s400\/September_2009_Style_1.jpg\" border=\"0\" alt=\"\"id=\"BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5321698277812413586\" \/><\/a><br \/>Despite how I am really feeling today&#8230; which is in one word GRUMPY (thanks to the RIDICULOUS weather), I am challenging myself to write a positive blog.<\/p>\n<p>What can I say?<\/p>\n<p>One of the facts of being ADHD  (which is actually ADD with hyperactivity) is that in one day there is a constant flurry of activity in this mind of mine.  It never seems to stop.   I have so many ideas that pass through my mind&#8230; at this present time &#8230; seeking for the right answer of what will be my next step?<\/p>\n<p>I mean beyond the puppies, homework, after-school activities, gym  and my tea parties (as Sanj loves to call them&#8230; despite that fact that I really dislike tea).<\/p>\n<p>September is looming ahead of me with anticipation, fascination, frustration and exhilaration.<\/p>\n<p>I am full of <span style=\"font-weight:bold;\">anticipation<\/span> the next phase of life&#8230; a house full of school going children&#8230; from high school all the way down to JK.<br \/>I am full of<span style=\"font-weight:bold;\"> fascination<\/span>  as I work hard to find fulfillment in this new phase of my life.  I know that isn&#8217;t going to be hard but&#8230;<br \/>I am full of <span style=\"font-weight:bold;\">frustration<\/span> simply because there is SO MUCH I want to do.  How do I know?  I am listening, Lord&#8230;<br \/>I am full of <span style=\"font-weight:bold;\">exhilaration<\/span> simply because it is really my turn.  I have a husband that supports me in all my endeavors even the most ridiculous, far-fetched ones.  I have lived my life for my children&#8230;  now a few hours a day&#8230; I can be about ME!  What a feeling of exhilaration I feel&#8230; and yet&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I am full of <span style=\"font-weight:bold;\">trepidation<\/span>.  I worry about Josh and the transition of cutting the cord though I know I went through this with each one.  I worry about taking on too much and still juggling it all.  I worry about contributing to our family financial (though this is not a pressure from Sanj)&#8230; yet all my dreams of full of big what if and definitely not with any guarantees.  I know it is all a risk and life is too short.  But yet&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>So I find myself trying to SLOW DOWN&#8230; find what Step # 1 is and take that first step.<br \/>So I find myself  trying to calm the racing excitment that I feel pulsing through my blood.<br \/>So I find myself trying to just stop for this moment&#8230;  sign off and just finish the dishes.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Despite how I am really feeling today&#8230; which is in one word GRUMPY (thanks to the RIDICULOUS weather), I am challenging myself to write a positive blog. What can I say? 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