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It’s midweek… and it’s harder and harder to get the troopers up and at ’em.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

“Mommy, I feel sick”<\/em> interpreted “Mommy, I’m tired and don’t want to get up.”<\/em> \u00a0Sigh. \u00a0It’s grey outside and I too, want to just bury my head under my covers and hit snooze. \u00a0My kids seem to dislike school. \u00a0Especially my younger ones. \u00a0Josh complains about what a long day school is. \u00a0He is a home body. \u00a0I really do feel for him. \u00a0It must really stink to do “work” 8 long hours a day, especially when you just want to play. \u00a0I wish my boys liked school. \u00a0It would make life a lot easier. \u00a0Usually in January, the boys have a PA day but not this year… so January seems longer. \u00a0Maybe what we need is a vacation!<\/p>\n

I’m in the midst of planning the second annual Indian dinner with my Indian posse. \u00a0This is to raise funds for technological advancements at our school. \u00a0Tick Tock… the clock is ticking and the dinner is just around the corner! Yikes! \u00a0Last year was a huge success. \u00a0I hope that this year follows suit.<\/p>\n

I just booked my spot in my second writer’s retreat for March. \u00a0I’m so looking forward to it. \u00a0I didn’t like the staying by myself in a hotel bit (as I am a scaredy cat) but I learned so much. \u00a0I’m looking forward to getting back into writing. \u00a0It seemed that so much got in the way after my last retreat. \u00a0Mainly, Max being sick. \u00a0How is he? \u00a0Surprisingly, much better. \u00a0He has stopped throwing up after each meal or after a drink. \u00a0 Now it is just an occasional thing… which is so much better than throwing up after every meal! \u00a0Thank you for all your prayers. \u00a0I think that this is an idiopathic thing and something he’ll just end up outgrowing.<\/p>\n

This week Sammy asked me if he could try out for the Red Bull Crash Ice<\/a>. \u00a0Hum… if you know what it is about you’d likely think, “How crazy<\/em>!” \u00a0He thought the try out age was 16 years old. \u00a0I said, “Sure.”<\/em> \u00a0I mean \u00a0the boy is a crazy good hockey player. \u00a0He skates better than he walks. \u00a0Why not? \u00a0I asked him, “What if you get hurt<\/em>?” \u00a0I loved his answer… “Than I get hurt.” \u00a0<\/em>As we planned to go to TO where the try outs were being held, I felt so proud of him for being brave and going after what he wants. \u00a0This particular goal will have to wait till he is apparently 18 years old, as we found out after double checking.<\/p>\n

It made me think of all those kids that stand in line, as American Idol hopefuls. \u00a0Everyone has a dream… and it just takes one chance, with skill and a little luck, for someone’s dream to come true. \u00a0Go Sammy Go.<\/p>\n

Lately as I try to get back into my everyday groove, something I’ve found hard to do since returning from India, I can’t stop thinking of things I saw on the other side of the world. \u00a0 My boys were sure I was going to pack a baby girl in my suitcase and bring her home. \u00a0It didn’t happen exactly that way… but once I got home and started working on my India: \u00a0To Do list… I couldn’t get that little girl out of my mind. \u00a0As I called and found out details to have her sent to one of the REACH INTERNATIONAL schools, where she would be feed, clothed and get attention for any health issues, I couldn’t imagine one of my boys going to a school as an orphan. \u00a0I felt the need to at least check into adoption. \u00a0Sanj’s answer was, “Check it out<\/em>.” \u00a0Have I said how much I love this man?!!<\/p>\n

I had mixed feelings. \u00a0One, I feel like I’ve closed that door on having a daughter. \u00a0I’ve put all those emotions on a shelf, dealt with them as much as I can and shut that door. \u00a0Lock it. \u00a0Hidden the key. \u00a0So… understandable, I had a lot of trepidation to even open that door. \u00a0I tried to rein in my overactive imagination of packing a suitcase to bring with me of girl clothes, of maybe getting an American Girl Doll that looked like her (I don’t even know her name)… of her holding that doll as we embarked on our adventure together of coming home. \u00a0I thought of taking Zachary with me, as he is close to her age and a friendly chap. \u00a0Sammy, already begged to go with me. \u00a0I imaged giving her a good bath. \u00a0With bubbles. \u00a0I imagined even turning my office into a bedroom. \u00a0I imagined what it would feel like to hold her hand. \u00a0I wondered if we would connect immediately or if it would be a slower process. \u00a0I imagined…<\/p>\n

And yet I also knew it would be a rough road, a long road. \u00a0As the call was made… my heart started pounding. \u00a0 I am not a patient person. \u00a0I waited. \u00a0When the phone rang, I felt myself deaden a bit… (is that even a phrase)? \u00a0Then I heard no. \u00a0The pastor and family plan on adopting her. \u00a0She has just turned 6. \u00a0They will educate her. \u00a0They want her.<\/p>\n

I’m glad. \u00a0Really I am. \u00a0At least she is lucky. \u00a0 She is wanted. \u00a0She will hopefully be loved. \u00a0She will hopefully have a life that isn’t filled with fear and loneliness. \u00a0She will have a life.<\/p>\n

I have six boys that fill my world with craziness. \u00a0I have things that I need to accomplish. \u00a0I have my India: To Do list. \u00a0I have my regular TO DO list. \u00a0I have a lot going on.<\/p>\n

Why God? \u00a0Why did I feel You asking me to even go there? \u00a0As I asked that, I heard “Obedience.” \u00a0Is that weird? \u00a0Sure I could have imagined that. \u00a0Yet I think I was being asked to obey. \u00a0Lucky for Sammy, at least it wasn’t like Abraham! lol<\/p>\n

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I’m shutting that door again. \u00a0Maybe this time I’ll throw away the key.<\/p>\n

My next post will be about my India: To Do List. \u00a0Check it out. \u00a0Maybe you may be interested in some of the projects.<\/p>\n

xoxo<\/p>\n

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