Today is Easter Friday… it’s often a day of reflection. \u00a0Today, while in church, I found myself remembering… it was over 9 years ago, I was in church, it was Easter weekend and I found myself sobbing through the service, wondering where God was?<\/p>\n
I had just had a DNC and in my mind, the baby that I was so excited for, so sure that THIS babe was a girl… was sucked out of me. \u00a0It was called a molar pregnancy. \u00a0It was truly one of the lowest points in my life. \u00a0After living through this child’s life within minutes of learning of my pregnancy, I felt such a devastation. \u00a0As the songs played in church, I found myself feeling so many emotions. \u00a0Of course time does heal wounds, to some extent. \u00a0Over the following year, we concieved a being that would be Joshua, our youngest.<\/p>\n
Over the last 9 years, I think of this babe that I never had a chance to be mom to. \u00a0I think of the pain I feel so sharply in church that day. \u00a0I found myself yearning for heaven to come and look forward to knowing I still have a babe that I have yet to meet.<\/p>\n
Today, Easter Friday, we were in church. \u00a0I remembered this babe. I felt that void. \u00a0I sometime look at this box I have of “things that remind me of “her.<\/em>” \u00a0Today, after all these years of pain, I had an epiphany. \u00a0I guess I just never really was opened to anything except remembering the pain that was so real to me every Easter… And yet, TODAY I realized that as that experience happened around Easther weekend, the next Easter SUNDAY… guess what? \u00a0Josh was born… he was our Easter Baby.<\/p>\n It hit me that I had not had my eyes opened. \u00a0And yet when I opened my eyes, God gave me a gift on Easter perhaps to say, “I feel your pain.” \u00a0<\/em>It was such an ephipany! \u00a0It’s not about pain… as in the story of Jesus and his death. \u00a0Sure there is pain, but there is also reason to rejoice!<\/p>\n \n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Today is Easter Friday… it’s often a day of reflection. \u00a0Today, while in church, I found myself remembering… it was over 9 years ago, I was in church, it was Easter weekend and I found myself sobbing through the service, … Continue reading