If you follow me, you know that this passion is about sexual assault, the #metoo movement, #churchtoo #pastoralabuse. \u00a0I am grateful that God has given me strength to speak up about this issue and to be a voice for many that cannot speak about their pain and abuse.<\/p>\n
This morning I was reading a powerful article by a lady that had horrible abuse by her father and then this continued to be abused by different men in her life as she went to the different phases of life. \u00a0It spoke to me. \u00a0It reminded me that this #metoo movement is not going away. \u00a0It is gaining momentum as more women (and men) feel empowerment at the injustice that is so huge and wide spread. \u00a0I think that suddenly, those that have been abused, realize that they are not alone! \u00a0It is really a lonely place to be. \u00a0It is a place of self loathing. \u00a0It is a place of needing to forgive yourself and yet not finding that power to do so. \u00a0OK, I can obviously go on with this … but I am getting distracted about the point of this post.<\/p>\n
I have forever said I am going to write a book. \u00a0FOREVER! \u00a0I probably have written a few version of the book I am wanting to write and then I discard it. \u00a0Now is the time. \u00a0I know this is the time and am ready. \u00a0I made myself a nook at the office so that I head to work with the family and have a time carved out to write with no household distracts. \u00a0I find that being around people is something that helps me. \u00a0So, this is where I am at. \u00a0On top of all this, I know that God is and has been nudging me to get going. \u00a0All the obstacles are out of the way. \u00a0I have the support of Sanj who is very tolerate of all my projects. \u00a0Some I complete, others fall by the way side. \u00a0So I am sitting here in my nook….<\/p>\n
This morning as I was reading this article, I was flooded with doubt. \u00a0I mean MAJOR doubt. \u00a0Have you read my husband’s stuff? \u00a0He writes so beautifully and uses big words! \u00a0I read my brother’s stuff and there are such powerful thoughts I wonder how we are related. \u00a0I read this article, saying stuff that I want to say and found myself in a mode of panic. \u00a0I was letting God know this, as I stood in the shower ( the quietest time of my day). \u00a0I know He knows all my thought and emotions and yet in this moment I was flooded with insecurities.<\/p>\n
I love how people come up with quotes that become well known. \u00a0I wish I could think of something cool that Toby Mac has on his sites or Maya Angelo, or Abraham Lincoln. \u00a0As I stood there, full of doubt, ready to go into a full on panic attack (well, not like before), I had this thought…<\/p>\n
If God calls you, He will empower you.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n I walked out of the shower and felt shaky (not from low blood sugar). \u00a0I felt held up. \u00a0I felt a huge WOW moment. \u00a0God just reassured me! \u00a0I am not one that will say God spoke to me… of course He has but it has been different. \u00a0This time, I know God was promising me that He is calling and He will give me what I need. \u00a0I felt kind of giddy. \u00a0(If you know me, \u00a0you know that I can get very excitable, easily).<\/p>\n SO…. I am writing this for a reason. \u00a0I am going into this with faith. \u00a0Maybe not as small as a mustard seed, but it is small. \u00a0Yet my excitement is full on. \u00a0So, I am going to quit stalling and DO IT. \u00a0I am writing this 1) because I am excited to really HEAR God’s voice loud and clear 2) to ask if you will pray for me<\/strong> and for this project and 3) please buy my book \u00a0(here is where I hear Sanj’s voice telling me not to get ahead of myself…lol).<\/p>\n Thank you ahead of time!<\/p>\n xoxo<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" If you follow me, you know that this passion is about sexual assault, the #metoo movement, #churchtoo #pastoralabuse. \u00a0I am grateful that God has given me strength to speak up about this issue and to be a voice for many … Continue reading