{"id":585,"date":"2009-05-10T17:07:00","date_gmt":"2009-05-10T21:07:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=585"},"modified":"2009-05-10T17:07:00","modified_gmt":"2009-05-10T21:07:00","slug":"sunday-ramblings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=585","title":{"rendered":"Sunday Ramblings&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a onblur=\"try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}\" href=\"http:\/\/4.bp.blogspot.com\/_ESvCH9ghcAI\/Sgdd_ij0iLI\/AAAAAAAABo0\/9_zylmS9SnY\/s1600-h\/Count.cgi.gif\"><img decoding=\"async\" style=\"float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 152px; height: 32px;\" src=\"http:\/\/4.bp.blogspot.com\/_ESvCH9ghcAI\/Sgdd_ij0iLI\/AAAAAAAABo0\/9_zylmS9SnY\/s400\/Count.cgi.gif\" border=\"0\" alt=\"\"id=\"BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5334335629833832626\" \/><\/a><br \/>We went to church today&#8230; (yes, Sanj was on the praise team&#8230;) and it was interesting.<\/p>\n<p>I hate letting &#8220;bad&#8221; thoughts flow through me at any given point.  I don&#8217;t like being mean or petty.  If I am going there, I try to stop the flow of that poison.  Sometimes it works, other times, I just have to allow myself  that moment and then let it go!<\/p>\n<p>I hate know it all people.  OK&#8230; hate is a strong word.  But I do dislike them immensely.<br \/>I don&#8217;t mind if you are really knowledgeable but when you try to make others feel less than you (umm, hello&#8230;. INSECURITY SCREAMING OUT LOUD)&#8230; it is an ugly thing.<\/p>\n<p>So I am there, at church, watching this happen.   I am feeling the bad flows of energy whirling around me.  CHURCH!  I am in church.<\/p>\n<p>It doesn&#8217;t make me a good person.  But I am bothered by this.  Humans&#8230; we are all JUST HUMAN.  Let it go.<\/p>\n<p>Church&#8230;  I sat next to a mom I admire greatly.  It was great to look around and see wonderful people that I can call my friend and support system.<\/p>\n<p>We talked about the &#8220;Sanctuary&#8221; and whether church in it self was special&#8230; everywhere INCLUDING THE MALL could be a sanctuary.  I liked that!    Maybe that wasn&#8217;t all I was to get out of it but I must admit that my brain froze there &#8230; and then it was over.  Imagine church in the mall&#8230; I would probably go more often.  lol<\/p>\n<p>Sanj went to his alumni this weekend&#8230; he played and sang on Friday night at the church where his high school was.  Despite the fact that this wasn&#8217;t my past, it was easy to just go back &#8230; songs just took you back&#8230;. S<span style=\"font-.weight:bold;\">ide by Side<span style=\"font-style:italic;\"><\/span><\/span>.<\/p>\n<p>As we sat there in the pews, Sanj looked at me and mouthed &#8220;I love you.&#8221;      I love those little moments.  They are so meaning in the biggest of ways.  High school for so many was not the best of memories for whatever reason.  <\/p>\n<p>Being there, I could sense his energy.  I am glad that I went, despite the work of getting the kids there, dressed, fed,driving in the storm, keeping them quiet and reminding them that IT WAS NOT ALWAYS ABOUT THEM&#8230; we were there for Daddy.<\/p>\n<p>Love is about the little moments.  I love watching people interact&#8230; it is about the small gestures.  One of my friends always calls her husband &#8220;My John.&#8221;  I love that!  I love the little things such as carrying a wife&#8217;s purse&#8230; despite how it will look.  Or getting up  and starting the car or shoveling the drive&#8230; little things.<\/p>\n<p>I love when I see <span style=\"font-style:italic;\">the little things <\/span>my boys do.  Getting out of the car, helping put the groceries in.  Sweeping the floor instead of walking over or on it.  <\/p>\n<p>Getting up to take the dogs out, doing the dishes with out being asked.  Holding my hand on a whim  (I LOVE THIS), strumming  on the guitar a song they learned.  I could keep going&#8230; but really I need to focus on the <span style=\"font-style:italic;\">little things<span style=\"font-weight:bold;\"><span style=\"font-style:italic;\"><\/span><\/span><\/span> that are done and appreciate them.  There will always be things they don&#8217;t do&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I admire people that go after their dream.  My cousin is one of these folks.  He has a love for music and just put out a CD&#8230; check out his site at <span style=\"font-weight:bold;\">www.gkishorecarey.com<\/span><\/p>\n<p>This blog is all over the place&#8230; it is Sunday.  I am avoiding the on-slaughter of Monday morning.<br \/>But all good things must come to an end at some point!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>We went to church today&#8230; (yes, Sanj was on the praise team&#8230;) and it was interesting. 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