{"id":771,"date":"2009-11-10T21:40:00","date_gmt":"2009-11-11T02:40:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=771"},"modified":"2009-11-10T21:40:00","modified_gmt":"2009-11-11T02:40:00","slug":"beating-myself-up","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=771","title":{"rendered":"Beating Myself Up&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Today I had a day full of &#8221; I wish I could be more&#8230;&#8221; <\/p>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Why do I do that? I caught myself as I came down on myself hard&#8230; again this evening. I was wishing that I could whip up a few dozen awesome cupcakes to send to school with Max tomorrow. (It will be his birthday!!!)<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I found myself wishing I was able to be a morning person so life at our house would be smoother.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I found myself wishing I was better at budgeting so I wouldn&#8217;t have money stresses.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I found myself wishing I could have more self confidence so I could do things that I really want to, need to and yet am scared.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Why did I beat myself up today? No one else did that to me&#8230; yet I found that today I was constantly putting myself down.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>Do you do that? I know if I heard you doing that I would immediately point out all the things you are awesome at. I really had to make myself stop. Pause. Then give myself credit for all the things I did do today.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I have to make a conscious effort to stop that nasty little demon of self doubt from popping up.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I need really give myself a break&#8230; just sometimes. Today was that day. No cupcakes for my Max&#8217;s class. But I will pick him up and take him for lunch. And maybe buy him a cupcake! <\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Today I had a day full of &#8221; I wish I could be more&#8230;&#8221; Why do I do that? I caught myself as I came down on myself hard&#8230; again this evening. I was wishing that I could whip up &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/?p=771\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/771"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=771"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/771\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=771"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=771"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/livinglovingbreathingboys.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=771"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}