Day 2 in this new year… I’m writing! Zach asked me what my Bucket List was for this year… and I had to pause. I’ve given up on New Year’s Resolutions because I suck at the stick to it factor. (Sanj… stop snickering)! What is my Bucket List for this year? Well, I really want to write again. I miss it. It, writing feels to therapeutic and yet when I don’t post it, I seem to feel like I have failed and it doesn’t count.
I really need to exercise and fix my diet … but while it is a constant try again, that sounds a little too much like a New Year Resolution. Ugh! I really want to better my character. I want to try harder to be non-judgmental. I want to tell to just love people, period. Ugh, sometimes it’s a hard thing to love those that annoy me or having annoying quirks.
Today my mil (mother-in-law) is in for open heart surgery. It has me thinking of life and death and that fine line. It has me wondering what will someone write in my obituary? Am I living a life that will make me blush with pleasure as they talk about me? Or will I be shamed? What about the people that are just not nice? What do they say? Do they make it up? I think a lot of my dad and his death and what we will do and say.
I’m finding myself restless… being still, waiting and behaving! The only channel on is CNN and foolish chatter about Donald Trump. Ugh.
It’s a bad day to be ADD!