Space… I have been thinking of space… personal space, space in a friendship, space in a relationship…
How much is good? How much is telling of issues that are really there? What makes for a comfortable space?
Do you have any idea what I am talking about? Today I was thinking of a friend, realizing I haven’t talked to them in a while… an unusually long while (no it isn’t you!!!)… and realizing that I don’t miss that interaction. The thought of making that connection again felt tiresome.
Then there are friendships that have space just because of life at the moment. But you know you will reconnect in a week or a month and its always good.
Then there are the friendships that go by the wayside and I wonder what happened. Actually I usually know what happened. I will stop calling or initiating … and bam… nothing happens. Then I really wonder… what was there really? That can be hurtful.
I need easy. I need real. I need the back and forth. Space … it must be just comfortable space.
I was thinking of space that occurs when you really get to know someone… and it can be disappointing when there is that character flaw. You wonder how come you never saw it… and really how big is it? Can you accept it? How important is that person? That is really the deciding factor. Some traits can be overlooked… if love for the person is bigger than the flaw.
Some people… it is just easy. I love easy. Where have you been my whole life? I know that if I don’t talk to you for a few weeks … it is all good. We will hook up when we hook up.
Others I miss when I haven’t spoken to them in the day.
As I am real with my time and feelings with each person in my life… I find it becoming easier to just take the space I need… and be OK with it.
Where is this all coming from? Today I saw someone I had not connected in a while. And I felt guilty. I know they are wondering where I have gone. Yet… i need space right now. I feel sucked dry when with them. Yet, feel that I needed to be there for them.
So now that I am really listening to me… I wonder where this will all go? Will I just continue to be there for them… and not worry about me and what I am not getting… Maybe it is OK to have these people in your life. Just as long as you control that number.
Just my thoughts and ramblings… maybe it is my guilt.
Some quotes I read…
"Every single person who's drifted in or out of your life is a part of your divinely chosen experience."
"When you are in the presence of an inspiring person, you know that something is happening energetically. Even though you can't see, touch, or hear it, you know that you're experiencing a shift that makes you feel incredibly good."
"Use your own inner hunches to determine if you're in the right place with the right people: If you feel good in someone's presence, and you are a better and more joyful person, then you are in the right place with the right people."
I have learned…as I shared earlier…that it is OK not to have a physical relationship with those people who do not build up your spirit…rather let them go with LOVE…send them love and release them. Your love will allow you to let go. Your loving them and releasing them will make more of an impact on their spirit, bringing "in-spiration" to their lives…you can't do this if you try to "hold on" to the relationship…other emotions will take over and then you both are not experiencing the reason that God brought you together which is to "inspire" each other.
Thank you for today! You are an inspiration to me! You allow me to feel good and I am so grateful that I can call you my friend!
I love you!!