Goodbye 2008!

Growing up, after my father banned Christmas from being celebrated, New Years was the replacement. It was a huge day. For a while we even got presents. Each of us received a morning watch… which was our church devotion book… and we each got a copy.

When we had worship we each were to follow along in our own copy. We had a big deal with New Years resolutions… and every year I remember wanting to read my bible through. I wasn’t very good at that one.

In tradition I would make New Year resolutions every year and feel like a failure when I didn’t accomplish what I set out to do.

Now I have a different out look on a New Year. When I think of the past year, I am reminded of so many who did not make it to see the end of 2008. So I see a New Year as a gift… that each of my family member is healthy and here with me to celebrate 2009.

I see it a blessing that I feel so much more healthy emotionally. I have worked hard to tackle many demons inside me and FEEL that peace and contentment that seemed beyond my reach. I am eager to continue to work and a big one… that I keep pushing away… and am ready and looking forward to a feeling I have never had.

I am grateful for health. Despite being a year of admiting I am a diabetic, it was also a year I took control of my health.

I am so proud… and still this is a day by day struggle… (one I am losing while my mom is here).

For me, 2008 has been a year of winning the battle… I feel good about that. It was a roller coaster ride, but I was able to walk away with out barfing. 🙂

I do have goals and dreams for 2009 but I have learned that breaking a resolution will not stop me from trying to be successful the next moment.

That is one of my goals… to keep trying to reach my dreams… one moment at a time.

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One Response to Goodbye 2008!

  1. a friend says:

    Some quotes I read:
    "True nobility is not about being better than someone else, it's about being better than you used to be."
    By Michelangelo:
    "Lord, grant that I might always desire more than I can accomplish."
    "The greater danger for most of us lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low and achieving our mark."

    Keep on being the best you that you can be at each moment!!!I am very proud of you and all that you have done this year!!!