Growing up, after my father banned Christmas from being celebrated, New Years was the replacement. It was a huge day. For a while we even got presents. Each of us received a morning watch… which was our church devotion book… and we each got a copy.
When we had worship we each were to follow along in our own copy. We had a big deal with New Years resolutions… and every year I remember wanting to read my bible through. I wasn’t very good at that one.
In tradition I would make New Year resolutions every year and feel like a failure when I didn’t accomplish what I set out to do.
Now I have a different out look on a New Year. When I think of the past year, I am reminded of so many who did not make it to see the end of 2008. So I see a New Year as a gift… that each of my family member is healthy and here with me to celebrate 2009.
I see it a blessing that I feel so much more healthy emotionally. I have worked hard to tackle many demons inside me and FEEL that peace and contentment that seemed beyond my reach. I am eager to continue to work and a big one… that I keep pushing away… and am ready and looking forward to a feeling I have never had.
I am grateful for health. Despite being a year of admiting I am a diabetic, it was also a year I took control of my health.
I am so proud… and still this is a day by day struggle… (one I am losing while my mom is here).
For me, 2008 has been a year of winning the battle… I feel good about that. It was a roller coaster ride, but I was able to walk away with out barfing. 🙂
I do have goals and dreams for 2009 but I have learned that breaking a resolution will not stop me from trying to be successful the next moment.
That is one of my goals… to keep trying to reach my dreams… one moment at a time.