I suppose this is stemmed from insecurities. Nevertheless, I find this behavior annoying. An example of this are Christians who try too hard.
I am picking on Christians simply because this was an experience that is fresh on my mind. No one expects families to be perfect. No one expects a mom or dad to be perfect. That includes God. He actually understands and accepts the imperfection in us.
I love that. I don’t have to try hard to impress Him. He gets me. He understands that no one is harder on me than ME!
Why pretend you are a engaged parent when we understand you are a workaholic? Why pretend to have perfect children when we all are going through parenting together and love the childishness that make children who they are?
Why say “I was praying for you today?” When you barely have said hello? Weird? Petty? Probably.
I just hate superficialness. Please just be real with me. I like you. Especially the real you. Please don’t pretend. I don’t know what to do with that. I spent too many years forced to pretend we were a happy family… growing up. I can’t do that.
I am who I am.
I am full of flaws. Just ask my oldest! But I am trying. I am really trying. I feel that if I live each day to the best I can… and some days even just to the tiniest of that… God gets it.
So I am not looking for perfection. I am just looking for real. Please?