An Epiphany!

I was at the dentist with Sammy (that is another story…). As I was waiting for the dentist to come in, I noticed his family picture. They are nice looking family of a mama, dada, boy and girl.

After a long day, I couldn’t help but think of just having 2 kids. I suppose that would have been Sammy and Tyler.

I paused to contempt life with my two boys. Wow… how different. Quieter, not as busy, easier, cheaper and then I had a moment of unsettlement.

There I was tonight, and I had a moment of panic. It didn’t feel right.

As I allowed my mind to go back to reality, 6 boys, chaos, loudness, clutter, laundry, messes, I had a feeling of utter fulfilment.

This might seem silly, but today, I had a deep realization that I am supposed to be mother of 6 rambunctious, lovely boys. It is what fulfills me. It is what satisfies me. It is the life I was so meant to lead.

It doesn’t come with perfect days… but neither would my life with my 2 kids.

I am living my life just as I am supposed to. It is a good life!