Today I met a very calm person. I was fascinated by her. The 3 younger boys had their eye check ups today. The doctor was this lady that was so calm. She wasn’t slow or out of it in a duh kind of way. I was so intrigued with her.
How does one become so calm? I am a very hyper person by nature. It is a part of me. My mind is always racing with thoughts and ideas. Always. Maybe this is why I like to read. Reading and becoming engrossed in a story always me to STOP my mind. Yet then my mind roams after I close my book.
Sigh. A week or so ago, I went to the spa with a friend of mine. It was a whole day package. I was SO EXCITED! I have never done anything like this before.
After getting there, we were to change into a robe that was provided. It was white! I loved wearing white… it is something that is a luxury in my life. White never stays white. I buy inexpensive shirts, knowing full well it won’t be a shirt I will wear out too long. The robe was so soft and I felt so special.
Then came the first treatment: A facial and a scalp treatment. I didn’t realize that the two were being down together. I lay there, in anticipation… oooh… the lady’s hand was so soft. I had all sorts of goop put on my face. It was a long time. I tried to relax but after an hour (what seemed like 2 hours) I started to wonder if I was ever going to be outta there. Crazy, eh? I felt sort of claustrophobic.
Later, after I was done, I realized it took so long because the two were together. Then there was lunch. Then… there was my most anticipated 60 minutes of massage. This was good. I actually feel asleep for a bit. I love a massage!!!
Then came the hour for a pedicure and an hour for the manicure. I am not complaining. I loved it all. Yet I realized that due to the nature of my being… ADHD folks are geared for the half a day spa. It is a day at the spa with all the same treatments, just a little shorter.
As I watched this super calm person today, I wondered what it would be like to have calm in my life. I wondered what it would be like to have a mind that functions at a normal speed. Is there such a thing? A normal minded speed?
It really was fascinating to watch. Sigh.
OH, how I relate!! It's when my mind is racing at 3am and won't let me go back to sleep that really drives me crazy!! I'm beginning to think that's when I need to write in MY blog… But, I have always considered my ADHD to be a blessing… it certainly contributes to the creativity… And you wouldn't be you without it… and I like you as you are.
Sandy