Scared.

It’s 4:50 a.m.


For me to be up at this hour any day means I am stressed.

I will be showering and heading to the hospital in a bit.  I have to be there at 6:30 a.m.  I was grumpy at the earliness of the hour but since I can’t sleep, I may as well get this over with.  I just hope my doctor isn’t too sleep and IS a morning person.

Thanks for all the well wishes.  I am a little freaked out now.  I felt kind of numb last night.  This morning I have a very rumbly tummy.

Maybe I have seen to many ER shows, where patients go in for a routine surgery and don’ t come out on the other side.  That would make me so sad.  I have a good life.  Be it, it has its’ ups and downs but it is a life I like living.  So, if you can pray for me… 8 a.m. today, I’d really appreciate it.

I have felt love from so many of you.  Thanks for the notes, calls, plans of meals, rides for my babes.  It’s all so overwhelming.

I am sure I will pass this event with flying colors.  I am looking forward to testing out my pain pump.  Apparently I can’t over dose on it! Lol.

Dear Jesus,

Here I am, ready (well, not really ready but…) to take this step to freedom from my monthly pains.  I am scared.  Actually, more than scared.  Please… give me strength and courage.  Please don’t let the IV hurt too bad.  Please may the recovery be easy peasy.  Please take care of my babes. How much I love them.  Please give Sanj the extra this and that he will need.  Thank you for my friends and family.  How I love them all.  I love You, Jesus so much.

Amen.

Well, here I go…

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