I’m not sure if I’ll post this or not but sometimes I feel better just writing. I am so low, depressed, craZy right now. I hate that feeling. Especially since I am usually full of energy and ready to that the world by storm. Not today. Not yesterday. Probably not tomorrow. Hopefully the next day.
I went to my doctor and got my crazy pill adjusted. Now it is just surviving till the drugs kick in and balance me out. I screamed at my kids today. We were waiting for pizza and they just seemed to go crazy. I mean really? It’s one thing to act insane at home. It’s another when everyone is watching and they have no shame.
I screamed at them. They got really silent. Maybe scared. Well, actually they never seem scared enough. Sigh. Yet they understood I was crazy. Daddy isn’t there to save them so they’d better stop. You could hear a pin drop. I texted Sanj. He said he was scared too.
I would say LOL but I don’t feel that.
I slept today while Josh was getting tutored at my MIL. I never sleep. It felt so good. I feel like sleeping for days. I feel like burying myself in a hole, with my book and some yummy cooking shows and chocolate and candy.
Yum. Corn candy. JuJubes. Corn Candy. Popcorn.
OK… I am sure that in a few more days there will be light at the end of the tunnel.
Work crazy pill, work!