A little crazy today. I think.

I’m not sure if I’ll post this or not but sometimes I feel better just writing.  I am so low, depressed, craZy right now.  I hate that feeling.  Especially since I am usually full of energy and ready to that the world by storm.  Not today.  Not yesterday.  Probably not tomorrow.  Hopefully the next day.

I went to my doctor and got my crazy pill adjusted.  Now it is just surviving till the drugs kick in and balance me out.  I screamed at my kids today.  We were waiting for pizza and they just seemed to go crazy.  I mean really?  It’s one thing to act insane at home.  It’s another when everyone is watching and they have no shame.

I screamed at them.  They got really silent.  Maybe scared.  Well, actually they never seem scared enough. Sigh.  Yet they understood I was crazy.  Daddy isn’t there to save them so they’d better stop.  You could hear a pin drop.  I texted Sanj.  He said he was scared too.

I would say LOL but I don’t feel that.

I slept today while Josh was getting tutored at my MIL.  I never sleep.  It felt so good.  I feel like sleeping for days.  I feel like burying myself in a hole, with my book and some yummy cooking shows and chocolate and candy.

Yum.  Corn candy.  JuJubes.  Corn Candy.  Popcorn.

OK…  I am sure that in a few more days there will be light at the end of the tunnel.

Work crazy pill, work!

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