This is the first page of my new book… I hope to write more. I love blogging but so often I have post written that I never post because I over analyze things. Yet I write this blog for me. I write this blog for my boys some day or my grandkids. Of course they may never care but if they do… it’s my gift. So I guess another thing I hope to strive for I to continue to be true to me. I’ve come a long ways in this. In fact compared to me in university or high school, I’m a whole different person. I’ve learned to love myself. (Wahoo… finally!) I’ve learned a LOT about forgiveness this year. I’ve learned that it is really the only way to not be emotionally constipated. I love this:
I used to wonder how to find that peace that passeth all understanding… (remember that song) and realized I don’t need to understand it all. I don’t need to figure out why “they” didn’t love me they way I needed or wanted…. I just need to love them. Forgive them. And leave the rest to God. I need to give myself permission to have peace without the other giving me permission.
I used to think that happily ever after was this picture I had since I was little… where every one was happy. Funny thing… I guess I forgot that I am not in charge of everyone’s happiness. I wanted the table with all the family laughing and happy. Nope… it’s not always like that. Some people chose to not seek that happiness. I can only be happy and enjoy the moment.
I learned this past year that there is such perfection in the imperfection. I need to embrace it.
I learned that I used to be in such a hurry to grow up…now I would give for those naps! lol
I am so grateful for all the blessings that came with 2013. My cup runneth over. I am also grateful for the trials that come, for with them, I grew.
Happy News Years! Welcome 2014!