The place that I was once fed, socially, emotionally and spiritually is gone.
Things have changed. Or maybe I have changed.
I have my “group” of friends, of course, but this isn’t about friends.
It is more about an environment, a retreat or a sense of belonging.
Really, it is all about my boys. It is their school. It is their happiness that matters.
I was just lucky that I was being fed too.
I have noticed that I have been reclusive, lately. I have been focusing on laundry a bit too much.
I have been making beds, thinking about dinner, maybe just going through a routine that is safe.
This may be normal for most “stay at home” moms but this is not me.
I feel like I am hiding out.
We do not live in town to just have people over. I am not even shopping unnecessarily. (Did I just say that)?
What am I waiting for? I feel like I have pressed the pause button on emotions.
May be it is just winter.
Maybe life really does go on while you are taking a time out.
Maybe I am not indispensable.
Maybe if I don’t call you to lunch, you keep going.
I thought maybe I would be missed.
Maybe it isn’t all about me. Hum… who would have thought?